predetermined life.

Kenapa banyak benda telah ditentukan didalam hidup siap siap.
Why are there so many predetermined things in life.

Genetically, dah ada a few bunch of benda dah ditentukan. Penyakit, maybe IQ.. hormone levels...
Then, genetically you will be a Malay ke a Chinese or a Matsaleh or whatever.. then other predetermined things will just follow you wherever you go. If you are a Malay you can't do this and that. Same for other races. Where the set of rules are not your choice. Be it written rules or unwritten rules. Celik2 je, these rules are imposed on you.

Socially,.. where you are born, akan tentukan how you would grow up. Which will then akan tentukan what type of rights you get as a human being. Human made rights. Where you don't get to choose as well. I.e you are genetically predetermined to get the benefits of a bumiputera, or an australian aborigine....

No questions asked. You just get it.

Jadi basically your rights are predetermined by your genes. I think especially in the case of gender.
Worse, if you were brought up in some countries, there is even moral policing. Men doing it. Perfectly fine. Women doing it? Morally unacceptable.

Not to mention, your rights to your own privacy, is predetermined to where you live in.
You can move out you say. But the same still goes for the other millions left.

Tak menarikkan, lagi2 kalau hak2 tu takde moral basis langsung or the "moral" basis is simply
MEREPEK. Just because it was written before, it is written now.

Ada option.... which is to fight for the rights that you want so badly.
Will you win that right in your lifetime?
You might....
Still depends which country you live in.

See, your life is predetermined, but you have a choice you know. Such an oxymoron.

Tomorrow is February already!

It's a devil's workshop but pretty rusty up here.

Notes to self on the last day of Jan.

1. This week is not like any other week like I did in January.
2. Up up up Hawa
3. House must be clean as I came back before I go
4. Record moments (Ive been lazy at this) Record, snap, tape, write, draw
5. Write down what inspires, not save.
6. I have to prepare to have a flat numb butt. You have to prepare to have a friend with a flat numb butt.
7. Implement, implement, implement.

I am super excited to go on this trip. Been talking about it for too long.
And the hassle definitely tested my patience. Its about time, before I rot any further.

bored.

This is where i get my money. Semenjak tiada lagi sumber pendapatan buat seketika.

Kadang2 dia gigit duit warna lain2. Ikut nasib.

Kadang2 dia gigit gusi je.

I am am I, Who am I?

Badak. Sangat Lady Gagarish. Tak sure whether people have figured out who they are. Its a meme of somesort trying to make people guess who they are. Lawaa and laawaa... Especially sebab dia guna weird looking animals. And that thing at the end yg nyawa nyawa ikan
also it has a killer beat.. (i have no idea what im talking about when it comes to beats., but enjoy!)




iamamiwhoami's youtube page

ugly inside out.

is it bad to say, ugly people are just ugly inside out.

boleh ke cakap ayat ni? 'dah la muka buruk, prangai pun buruk.'

atau cuma boleh kutuk pasal prangai dia buruk je?

tapi kalau prangai dia buruk sebab muka dia buruk macamana?

disebabkan keburukan muka dia yang terlampau hodoh, psychological impact orang lain terhadap dia dan keadaan sekeliling telah buat die jadi orang yang berperangai buruk

Pastu cuba kalau tambah dia tu miskin pulak.

Pastu tengah2 bengang nih. rasa nak mencarut. kita cakap

ko dah la buruk, miskin pastu prangai pun buruk. macam jahat kan.

tambah lagi satu kompleksiti. prangai dia buruk, sebab dia miskin.

sebab dia miskin, childhoodnya tak terjaga. Sebab dia hodoh, prangai dia hodoh.

Sebab dia miskin, dia tak pegi skolah. Jadi dia bodoh.

Sebab dia bodoh dan miskin prangai dia pun hodoh.

Macamana nak kesian kan kebodohan dan kemiskinan dia, kalau ada kehododohan perangai yang dibentuk oleh kemiskinan dan kehodohan dia terlalu teruk dan buruk.


Jahatkan generalization tu.

Tapi salah ke.

Tengok je American Idol ke. Yang hodoh tu prangai buruk, bodoh n suara tak sedap.

skang ni hawa ngah sakit hati, dengan sekelompok masyarakat.
sedikit generalisasi yang tidak adil, tapi contoh2 individu yg exact yg specific dlm otak hawe. rasa macam nk ketuk je.

'dah la buruk, miskin, bodoh, pastu prangai mcam setan'

fuh..

Ok. ada mana2 part hawa salah tak.

cerita ceriti

Sometime ago, in the middle of nowhere a girl was born. She was me. My parents didn’t actually know what name to give since they were so sure they would get a boy. But when a girl came out, they thought, oh okay, she’s the first girl so why not call her Hawa or Eve. I used to have an issue with my name, why isn’t my name Nadia why isn’t it Sarah or something more modern along the line. And since I stayed in penang, and my parents call me Hawa (kl style), but at school teachers and friends called me HawAAA sounded severely ugly. Which just added my hate towards my own name. and I thought, my name isn’t just old but its ANCIENT. The second being on the planet. Is it even possible to have an older name than that? Even Adam sounds much cooler than mine. Come to think of it, I really had issues with my name. There were a few points in my life I asked my brothers to call me by a different name. I can’t remember the names anymore but yeah that was the story. It also got to do with how my mom sometimes says she thought naming me Hawa was a mistake, because I cried too much and sesangat lah degil. And in the story of Adam and Eve, Eve was the bad one. Terasa lah jugak, because at times it did sounded like, I was the mistake and not the name. As a kid I actually went along with the idea, thinking that I’ll need to go tu JPN and change my name. One point I was actually excited to have an @ in my name. You know… small things that happen when you are a kid that affects you.

That was one of mine.

Penang should relocate to KL

I'll be away for the weekend!

Friday - Penang

Saturday - Johor

Sunday - Selangor

Monday - KL

Tuesday midnight - Penang

Penang should just relocate to KL. No, I'm serious. And yes it is possible.

short note

My Tres Leches Cake (via Pioneer woman) turned out osomm! I had it for breakfast, lunch and dinner, then breakfast lunch and dinner again because it was that good besides I was pretty lazy to get food anywhere else.

It tasted FAT.

gaga cookies

haha. my blog is back. so much for the wait, it has only become more vainer.

nothing interesting has happened,yet.. will try to write more in the future.

writing more, increases the probability of coming out with a good post. Writing less, doesn't actually mean it'll be a good one either. it only means less posts... by me... who is currently evolving into a boringer species.

I'm gonna couchsurf hunt in a minute. Or cute guy hunting. It states there that it isn't a dating site.
Sape kata nak date? xde sape. haha.

Go and open my google reader link! Lady Gaga cookies are soi dope.

femngaruttss...

Feminist satu feminist dua.

powergirl : wow, you survived that long in a long distance relationship.. must be tough.

perempuan 1 : ya..have to admit, its very hardd..

powergirl : tu la kan.. its hard, and oh expensive!

perempuan 1 : expensive for the men.. heh heh.. for the men.....

powergirl: eheh eheh.....

some pompuan, rasa empowered using men because memang tu purpose dorang, to be used.

some pompuan rasa weak using men, sebab tak independent.

pilih2.

lampu idea

Clash of ideologies. Hiak Hiakk.. zapp zapp.. tishh tishh... hiakk tish hiak tishhh..
ting ting zapp zap hiak tish hiak tish...

orgasmic female vocals

Dah overrated dah lawak2 last decade saye, yang berulang2.

Anyway, this was something I wanted to share dulu2 tapi lupa. Until nak tunjuk kat nadia.

Combo female vocals yang orgasmic sesangatttt....

Filled with last decade's memories..

Time hari raya haji, which is hari yang kena kemas utk keluar rumah, juga merangkap hari lalat2 bertelur... semua fell on the same day. Pastu kena marah kiri kanan sebab tak set priority betul2 walaupun semua tu is beyond my control. Especially kenapaa lalatt tuu nak beranak pada hari rayaaa and hari yang nak kena kuar rumah!! why!!!!!!!!!!

wow. memory tu clear.

Anyways, enjoy!!

think harder. I'm making a good argument here.

Ew, That is sooo last decade.
Owl city, Animals Collective, vintage wtfs, Wayfarers, 1Malaysia, even Avatar...

those are TOTALLY LAST DECADE. Please lah. Buat malu je mngaku kalau suka or ada or whatever... hahahahaa...

(relax, saje drama)

Tapi tahun lepas tu panggil decade ke apa eh.

kita ada 60an, 80an, 90an... pastu tahun lepas tu 00an ke or 00s. Nak sebut pun confuse. people tulis 2000s. still tak membantu kan.. gila pelik.

Kalau ada ujian membaca.

"Sila baca ayat berikut"

[Ketika dekad ke 00an, veganisme baru berkembang]

(mangkuk kau nak sebut ape nih!? pffffttt)

"ujian ini pas atau gagal sahaja ye incek"

Tu contoh masalah yang mungkin timbul, in ACTION.

Selalunya, orang2 tak suka decade yang baru lepas. Mcam, masa kita zaman 00an, kita tak suka sngat 90an... tapi bila nak hujung2 nak masuk 10an baru kita suka 90an.

Trends akan slalunye ulang balik, a decade sebelum last decade.

70s trends akan muncul balik sket2 dizaman 90s...
or 80s nye trends muncul di zaman 00s...

hipotesis dibuat, sebab babies of the X decade, plus 15 years old.. akan tetiba tersuka their moms fashion sense/music/or whatever sheyt.

so its X year + 15 years = minimum years for trends to comeback.

Skali lagi dengan bangga nya, another mystery telah di selesaikan.
Hawayou melaporkan, dari meja pengarang.


ps- tulisan kaler2 is sooo 10an...<--kalau sebut pakai mulut die extra lawak. ada unsur2 antiklimaks yg funny. hahahahahahahahahahhaha..




pps-explaining a joke makes it not funny. i know. haha..

2kx

sangat excited dengan tahun 2010. Azam tahun ni buat lebih detail seperti berikut.

1. baca lebih rss, lebih buku, lebih surat khabar.
2. makan sihat dan bersenam dengan konsisten
3. tidur 6 jam dan 5 minit power nap sehari.
4. buat azam harian dan self deadlines
5. think big and kick buttocks.

wish me miracle.