Buttons...

I just bought a huge pile of buttons cause they were just too tempting. Now, I'm not sure what to do with them. Erk.

Fail pick.

This one is just epic!

I'm so freaking cun. I love myself.

Previously, I checked myself with the symptoms of ADD. Apparently, I only have them seasonally so I am not qualified as one, meaning I can't take the medications that could also be used as diet pills. Ops. Haha. Kidding2*..

Aaaanyways, just now I stumbled upon a rather interesting type of disorder. I am sure everyone has had a classmate/housemate/colleague who is self centered, arrogant, ego, vain, gila kuasa, loves attention or so mean and weird where you would go like "What the fak!? She/He's so fucking mean. Who the fak would actually do that?" If you haven't I am very sure you will..... one day....

I have someone in mind!! But I'm not telling who. Haha. But he/she definitely doesn't read blogs, lagi lagi mine. I am so very sure. So, it won't be you.

Those people are actually sick. Because they have a mental disorder called


Narcissistic Personality Disorder**

How sad.

They can even get free parkings for behaving like a**hole... But I guess they are too self centered to get one. These might be the people who go on a suing spree when someone makes a stupid mistake. Hurmm?

But then again, lets see how someone could develop this disorder.

• Overindulgence and overvaluation by parents<-- can't blame him lah kan
  
• Valued by parents as a means to regulate their own self-esteem
• Excessive admiration that is never balanced with realistic feedback
• Severe emotional abuse in childhood<--- ok kesian..
  
• Being praised for perceived exceptional looks or talents by adults <-- i know, being too cute like me has a downfall..
• Learning manipulative behaviors from parents

So, my last words are, if you hate someone, think again, the person might have a mental disorder where he couldn't even control his actions.. or she.. If something wrong happens, its you who'll lose in court, cause he has the "OKU" card.



* I had to put kidding.
**This is just a fun post. Don't take it too seriously.

makcik jahit

Yes yes... I have a new sewing machine!





These look easy.. Macam kacang peas... haha. Hup hup hup hawa boleh!

...

You wanna know how musically challenged I am right now, look up my last.fm list. It's been 5 frikin days I haven't listened to anything, and the last thing that I listened was ilectures. How lame!! I even got other nerdies' lecture podcast for recomendations. ok tipu.

Come heree my last two paypahhhhhss.... I can't wait to show my love by vomitting my guts all over yahhh....

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Today is the most unproductive day in the whole wide world. But amazingly I finished answering the whole set of past year papers from 2004-2007 for my next paper on Monday. WOW!

Well, actually the questions are the same for every year since 2004.

Because of that, I have lost my momentum. PPfffft....

Knowing exactly whats coming out for the exam is too good to be true.

By right, I should be memorising it with all my heart right now. But Im not.

But I feel bad for not.

Because sometimes karma might be right.

Good grades are only for those who study hard.

Not for the ones who only study past year papers

I am a kiasu wearing contacts.

I am a geek with extra ehem.. nothing.....

I am still in the lab, and its freakin windy.

I feel sleepy and I am buncit.

I have 2 Mother F's with me. But I am not drinking it.

I am eating only the white side of this dinasour gummy.

Study topic : kehidupan di tanah gersang

(Life in Arid Zones)

Kenapa harus belajar tentang kehidupan di tanah gersang? Apakah kepentingan belajar tentang kehidupan di tanah gersang sedangkan tak ada tanah gersang pun di tanah air sendiri. Entahlah. Saya pun kurang tahu. Subjek ni hanya menghanguskan kulit saya dan menjadikannnya seperti padang jarak padang tekukur seperti tanah yang gersang juga. Bergunakah inti pati subjek ini kepada saya di masa hadapan kelak? Saya juga tidak begitu pasti. Siapalah saya untuk menganggarkan masa hadapan, kerana saya bukan ahli silap mata, dan bukan juga ahli sains aktuari.

Yang saya belajar tentang subjek ini ialah burung-burung, kanggaroo-kanggaroo dan echidna yang sangat comel. baby echidna yang comel


Tiba-tiba teringat quote Dr Mahathir dari lecturer saya yang pernah pergi biodiversity conference di Malaysia.

"When the last tiger dies, the sun will still shine tomorrow."

Erk? Saya rasa, sebagai manusia di dunia, kita tidak seharusnya selfish atau terlalu human centred... haiwan-haiwan juga harus di jaga bukan hanya untuk memerap dan mengekalkan kecomelan mereka untuk anak cucu, tetapi sebagai insuran di masa akan datang. Poyo tapi betul.

mimpi ep2

Ok.. harini mimpi lagi. tapi kali ni kena HEMPAP and it felt shitly like this... seriously.

Something was sitting on my chest and choking me, and it felt REAL, sounded REAL, and looked REAL. I would certainly confirm that I saw a real ghost if i did not know earlier what it actually was.
So, its called Sleeping Paralysis or the old hag or hempap or whatever else.

What happens is when you are asleep, in deep REM sleep, your brain releases a chemical which paralysises your body (other wise when we dream we would be waving our arms and legs about). In some people, they wake up and this chemical is still in their blood stream. It also is often accompanied by hallucinations or remenants of a dream.
One of the most terrifying aspects is this, is the "hag", which is a common hallucination for sufferers. When this chemical is present, our breathing feels restricted. This causes a common hallucination that there is someone sitting on our chest, whilst we are unable to move.


In my entire life.. i think It happened to me around 10x...

The fun thing about it, is to read what other cultures call it.. this is just from wiki..

• In Greece and Cyprus, it is believed that sleep paralysis occurs when a ghost-like creature or Demon named Mora, Vrahnas or Varypnas (Greek: Μόρα, Βραχνάς, Βαρυπνάς) tries to steal the victim's speech or sits on the victim's chest causing asphyxiation.

• In Zimbabwean Shona culture the word Madzikirira is used to refer something really pressing one down. This mostly refers to the spiritual world in which some spirit--especially an evil one--tries to use its victim for some evil purpose. The people believe that witches can only be people of close relations to be effective, and hence a witches often try to use one's spirit to bewitch one's relatives.

• In Ethiopian culture the word Dukak is used. Dukak is believed to be some form of evil spirit that possesses people during their sleep. This experience is also believed to be related to use of Khat. Most Khat users experience sleep paralysis when quitting after a long time of use.

• In Ireland it is also known as "the hag." The expression originates from reports of an old woman that was believed to be seen near the sufferer during paralysis.

• Several studies have shown that African-Americans may be predisposed to isolated sleep paralysis also known as "the witch is riding you," or "the haint is riding you."^[18] In addition, other studies have shown that African-Americans who have frequent episodes of isolated sleep paralysis, i.e., reporting having one or more sleep paralysis episodes per month coined as "sleep paralysis disorder," were predisposed to having panic attacks.^[19] This finding has been replicated by other independent researchers^[20][21]

• In Pakistani culture, it is an encounter with evil jinns and demons. It is also assumed that it is due to the black magic performed by enemies and jealous persons. Curses could also result in ghoul haunting a person. Some homes and locations are also haunted by these satanic beings.

• In Korean Culture, sleep paralysis is known as 가위눌림 ("ga-ui nool-lim"), which means "pressed by a nightmare."

twitter was kinda cool until..

........... I saw this video by LisaNova.

Gerak hati/naluri dari sudut pandangan evolusi

Ok, saja nak share something yang akan masuk periksa tak lama lagi. Kali ni, peperiksaan tidak bosan. Sebab adanya topik2 seperti Instinct.

Naluri atau Gerak hati, adalah tabiat atau perlakuan yang telah pun terbenam dalam otak manusia dan haiwan-haiwan lain tanpa disedari. Naluri tidak dipelajari dari apa-apa segi, baik dari contoh, diberitahu, pengalaman dan lain-lain. Naluri, diturunkan dari generasi ke generasi. Perkataan. Perkataan. Perkataan.


OK bosan, tanak jadi baku sangat, hodoh bunyinye.. Instinct ni die menarik sebab, lahir2 je jadi baby yg belendir, kita dah tau ape nak buat. Sebab instinct kita yg pertama ialah untuk menanges.

Instinct ni, biasanya instinctive.. hahahaha.. tak membantu.
Anyway, seiring instinct ada jugak Fixed Action Pattern (FAP)..
So, maksudnye, behaviour itu akan disusuli sebaik sahaja nampak the SIGN!

contoh untuk manusia

SIGN: nampak orang lain menguap
ACTION: menguap jugak....

contoh untuk lembu (ni takde sign tapi contoh instinct je)

Lembu : branak2 terus jalan.... takde pun tatih2 cakk.. tatih2 cak...

contoh untuk burung

SIGN : dekat muka burung herring ade satu bintik merah ni tau (why bother? bother jee)....
ACTION : Anak burung herring ni nampak je bintik merah tu, dia akan patuk2 bintik merah kat muka mak die secara automatic! wawawewa hebat shal.

Antara contoh lain instinct, macam... kalau dalam masa2 genting, akan ada heroic act yg hebat oleh manusia2 yang tidak terjangkau otak kita. So, tu sebab instinct jugak.

Manusia ada instinct, untuk mimic apa yg orang lain buat di skala yang sangat kecil tanpa disedari. Sebab tu, kalau kite tengok movie yang hebat, kite akan rasa sedih, rasa gembira dan lain2 sebab.. kita sebenarnya sedang mimic apa orang tu buat.
And sebab tu jugaklah, ada setengah orang nanges bila nmpak orang lain nanges(ade contoh banyak, contoh nye housemet saye)

Lagi satu contoh instinct mimicing yg slalu berlaku ialah, bila hawa excited mata tebeliak, tanpa sesetengah manusia sedari... mata korang jugak terbeliak.
Itu adalah cara untuk menyelami perasaan orang lain, secara tak sedar dan disitu jugalah munculnya yang kite panggil Empathy ye kawan kawan.....

Benda2 instinct ni terletak die bahagian otak kita yg primordial yang jugak masih digunakan oleh binatang2 dulu2 baikpun skarang. Instinct ni slalunyelah, bertujuan demi survival, atau pun dengan kata lain utk our selfish genes... Instinct atau perlakuan tanpa fikir yang disalah magnifikasikan boleh mengundang benda2 jahat seperti bunuh, rape, cemburu buta dan sebagainya. Instinct2 ini, adalah hasil evolusi, untuk either survival yang nyata atau adalah byproduct kepada evolusi benda lain yang bagus untuk kita, sebagai contoh.. evolution of bende yang menbantu reproduction, di mana.... benefit nya jauh lebih banyak dari keburukan..

Macam contoh.. testosterone yang banyak dalam laki.. bagus untuk buat anak banyak.... Tapi.. testosterone yang telalu banyak jugak ade kesan2 sampingan seperti, miang, gatal, ganas, ego dan sebagainya......

Tapi bleh ke kita salah kan naluri? takblehh.. sebab.. kita ade otak yang ada akai.
Sekian terima kasih.

Ted talk pick...

Simple idea, but truely genius.

mimpi ep1

Tadi mimpi naik kereta dengan Pn Lin, dia bawak laju sangat sampai terlanggar sorang mamat naik motosikal ni..
Motor die terbabas je, macam ok. Tapi rupanya dia mati. Polis pun buat operasi mencari siapa pembunuh orang naik motosikal tu. Ada sekumpulan samseng india pun join operasi. Hawa nyorok dekat dalam satu rumah kedai ni, ingatkan takde orang dalam tu. Rupanye ade dua baby umur dalam stahun sorang dengan tiga tahun sorang dalam rumah tu menangis cari mak bapak die. Samseng2 tu berjaya jumpa kat mana Hawa menyorok. Tapi diorang masih tak pasti siapa pembunuh sebenar. So, diorang keluarkan satu kit, yg boleh check DNA rambut. Tapi kalau nak guna, kena bakar beberapa helai rambut dekat tali yang ada dalam kit tu. Kalau habuk asap bakar rambut tu warna hijau, maksudnya orang tu la pembunuh..... pastu hawa bangun tido.

Study topic : Epigenetics

What I learnt from epigenetics.

You are not only what you eat.... you are also what your grandparents ate... and what your great grandparents ate....

Besides, how we handle stress or why we develope diabetes, might be a reenactment of the past on how our grandparents handled stress during war or famine (not as far as early humans that we previously thought off). Because their experience are imprinted in their genes and passed down to us.
*It could explain my gelabahness.. hmmm...

So remember kids, don't be selfish and think what you do is only your business, because its not.
Stay clean!


*Lamarck might be correct after all....

kanta mata

Kononnye study lama sangat sampai sbijik contact lense tecampak keluar. Nak masukkan balik, tapi dah keras. Tapi masukkan balik jugak, takde pilihan.

Asam kecut dah habis dua peket. Hawa malas nak minum coffee, jadi beli caffein pills je. Tak yah susah2 nak buat. Ada jual kat Arc store.

Pegi lab pun gatal nak pakai eyeshadow baru. Tapi nak cranky2 sebab tengok cermin macam gemuk dari biasa yang memang gemok pun.

Pagi2 makan sandwich rocket dan mushroom. Sedap. Boleh buat lagi lain kali. Pastu lunch makan sandwich lagi.. tapi ada tambah udang dengan telur dengan cheese dengan mayonaise dengan sos cili.

Skang mata asyik terkenyit sebelah. Dulu pernah jadi macam ni.. masa pegi kedai makan. Abang2 meja depan bajet kena ngorat kenyit mata. Hak ptuih.

Epigenetics tu apa. Boleh sapa2 ajarkan?

Bye.

The forgotten sesame street character.

I'll be doing a sheera here - being nostalgic for no reason, but no emo-ness. Haha.
So, there I was surfing some random things on the net, then suddenly I stumbled upon Grover and his best book of all time "There's a Monster at the End of this Book" by the Golden Books series. And its GROOOVERRRR!!!!!! Awwww, how I miss him.. I don't think he is still on Sesame Street though. Even if he is, its been a long time since. This is like the best children book in my entireeee life. haha.. seriously.

Page after page, Grover will go like "don'ttt turnnn... don't turn!!" because the title says that there's a monster at the end of the story. He'll try so hard to make us not to turn pages. He'll put bricks, ties up the pages and begs and begs so we won't turn to the next page. And of course, as a kid we'll turn the pages... And then he goes.. "you are sooo strong".... heheheheeeee I love him. He's so cute.

Here's the link to the full book, to find out whetherr there was a monster or nott....I love the ending. Grover senyum mengada2.... Its only 12 pages. Hee.... And.. I think I can do a not bad voice impersonation of him.. haha. Yeah, I just checked.

And now, they made it into a DVD .. Hmm.. I wonder if thats going to be good for the kids.
Golden Books series should be books! Not Golden DVD.................

Ngilu sucs like uni rite now

Hawee slaluuuu ngilu.Tapi bukan bunyi kuku kat papan hitam or bunyi polisterin kena gesek. Tapi hawa ngilu kat bunyi macam plastic yg satu jenis ni... aaa susah nak explain yg mana. Slalu kalau fail2 skolah yg plastik yg bleh bubuh macam2 dalam tu, plastik tu ngilu. Kalau, skru or besi.. gesek kat plastik yg tak rata.. tu geli ngilu gak. Kalau mug, gesek kat plastik yg tak rata pun ngilu nak mampos.

Perasaan die... macam naik bulu roma satu badan, badan sejuk nak mampos, gigi geli, gusi pun geli.. pastu rasa nak jeeerit....

Masa pegi trip Fowlers Gap, hawa discover 1 benda yg hawa ngilu.... toilet wipes. yang hawa beli from sydney. SUCk gile..
takkan tiap kali nak g jamban nak ade prasaan yg tak bes nak mampos nii... tension tul. U have noo ideaaa.....

And yesterday...
I found another one. Britney Spear's new song.. Womanizer...............
dalam lagu tuu ade siren bodoh masa start2 and tengah2....

tu pun nak ngiluuuuuuuuuuu gakk keeee woiiii..

Vundo

I have a feeling my computer has been attacked by si Pedajal VUNDO........ lagi!!!

Hawa tableh masuk high traffic sites macam google and facebook. Tapi kalau sites untuk tujuan2 akademik lajuuu je pulak. This SUCKS becoz... the last time, I had to delete it manually, sebab si vundo ni bleh tukar2 nama.

:)

I messed up my blog. Anyway, I'll fix that later.

I chose the theme, to show how happy I am with my life. :) I am the happiest person on earth with tonnes of assignments and I do not have any suicidal thoughts. :) I am very happy though I do not know what I am doing with my life right now.

:)

I am happy, because I am smiling.

:)

I am happy like happy laughter.

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five, four, three, two....................... one..

debushhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh... pssssstt.. zapp.

Besides evolving into an advanced retard, Hawa jugak broke. Broke, zero, kosong, tarak pa pa null nothing in my pocket.. Living off sisa kehidupan hawa yang lalu. Kais2, jumpe spuluh sen, kumpul2 dapat 1 dolar.

However, I bought Shopping ke shop ke ape2 lah, the magazine using my dad's credit card. How bijak is that!!! Pastu.. nak buat ape ngan magazine shopping tu? Depressed nak mampos.. Menung and tengok and bayangkan when can I buy all those, besides thinking how fat my belly is right now. Shopping? pffff... haraplah.....

I wan my moneyy backk laaa... oh my sugardaddy yang bos nye paklah aka my sponsor pulang kan lah duit bakal government servantmuuuuu....

Its really wierd and still a mystery WHY am I gaining weight while anas is getting thinner by the day eventhough our food consumption is 99% same. Pikir balik. tak lah pelik sangat. I am meant to be fat with very low metabolism.

I hateeeeeee this time of the year.

Cacat cacat cacat

This weekend, I am undergoing a process called retardation.

:)

hari kamis, kat lab 7pm-2am...
sabtu 10am-10pm
hari ni.. 12pm sampai mati.....................


kerja nye tak siap pun.

To, Cc, Bcc.

This was stuck in my draft, figured I might as well finish and post it since I have no better idea.

I just knew the difference between To, Cc and Bcc from zek... haha!

So, 'to' is for the people you want to send it to,

'cc' acronym for carbon copy is for people you just want to give a copy of the email to, 

and 'bcc' stands for blind carbon copy. Which is similar to that of 'cc' except that the email address of the recipients specified in this field do not appear in the received message header and the recipients in the 'to' or 'Cc' fields will not know that a copy sent to these address.

Ahaaa,, who knew the difference between cc and bcc before this? But before that, who actually cares?? hahaha... Tapi budak2 yang ambik kelas IT tak kiraa.. !

I bet 80% percent of you didn't know this info as well, since even a so called geek like me just knew about it. hahaha yakin.

Its funny because, what I used to do before, is agih-agihkan email recipient equally between to, cc, and bcc. hohooho....mesti ade geng punye.

..

I have 4 things to do within 24 hours.

A report, go to macquarie, make a bug maze and a book review.

All of them are basically still in their 3%-ish

PFFFFFffffffffffffffffffffffffffffff..

No holidays and raya for me this semester. I am surely going to explode and die. 

I need a effing break.

ADD

I am sure I have ADD and I need medication for it. 

I can't even stay focused longer than 10 mins not to say maintaining this blog. 

Some might say, owh everyone has it. 

But I can't even stay focused watching movies.

Books are even worse. Internet? I'll jump from one thing to another. Then I'll get bored.

The only thing that I am sure I can stay focused on is talking.

http://www.drhallowell.com/resources/articles/diagnostic_adults.html

it says there that if I have at least 12 of these symptoms I have ADD. So lets see....

A sense of underachievement, of not meeting one’s goals (regardless of how much one has actually accomplished) I have this for sure

Difficulty getting organized. I know you agree.

Chronic procrastination or trouble getting started. very very chronic

Many projects going simultaneously; trouble with follow through. Tick

A tendency to say what comes to mind without necessarily considering the timing or appropriateness of the remark. Ohoho yes

A frequent search for high stimulation. yeah but not that frequent

An intolerance of boredom. YES or not I'll sleep

Easy distractibility; trouble focusing attention, tendency to tune out or drift away in the middle of a page or conversation, often coupled with an inability to focus at times. Page yes conversation noo.

Often creative, intuitive, highly intelligent Ehem ehem. At a certain degree.

Trouble in going through established channels and following “proper” procedure. Hahahha. Skipping steps makes work easier.

Impatient; low tolerance of frustration. not so

Impulsive, either verbally or in action, as an impulsive spending of money. impulsive 

Changing plans, enacting new schemes or career plans and the like Spot on mate thats me mate

A tendency to worry needlessly, endlessly; a tendency to scan the horizon looking for something to worry about, alternating with attention to or disregard for actual dangers. Bahasa Melayunye.. GELABAH

A sense of insecurity. tick tick

Mood swings, mood lability, especially when disengaged from a person or a project. oho yes

Physical or cognitive restlessness. 

A tendency toward addictive behavior. seb baik tak.. but highly possible if i were to be with wrong friends.

Chronic problems with self-esteem. this one tak sangat...

Inaccurate self-observation. I am fat ugly with lots of pimples.

Family history of AD/HD or manic depressive illness or depression or substance abuse or other disorders of impulse control or mood. i think all my brothers have ADD hhahahaa...

ok... 17 out of 21. SAYEEEE ADDDDDDDDD!!!!!!!!!

Its spring and it feels like it.

I miss beaches. Can't wait to swim

current state

I have learnt through experience that love is blind.

But through experience I have learnt that you can choose not to be blind.

Self perception and Mate choice.

This is from one of the papers I had to read.

The graphs show that self perception as in how attractive you THINK you are  is correlated with

mate choice attractiveness.

So, without any further research... Can we conclude.....

-ugly people who think they are attractive will prefer attractive people

-attractive people who think they are ugly prefer unattractive people

-since self perception is correlated with self confidence(no reference, self deduced), people with low confidence tend to attract each other.

-it is all about how you think about yourself

-burung yang bulunya sama.. terbang bersama-sama.. (yg birds of a feather tu la)

-of course there are other factors involved and its relation with other factors are oversimplified. But it is still significant.

-last2 memang kita akan dapat yg sekufu...

- but you see, some of the points will have conflict when it is the other way around. (conflict between self perception and actual self attractiveness) Since it is how attractive you 'THINK' you are. ahaa! 

ok saje kasi pening.. fikir-fikirkan lah. haha.

anything goes

Baru je lepas habis sahur. Termakan banyak sangat pulak.

But, I'll need the energy for the rest of my day anyway. Since hawe skang ni sangat lah miskin, I was thinking on how to make money this Wednesday. at least something that could add 100-200 dolars for my pocket money. Berangan je lah... 

I don't think I have the junks to put on sale (but then again..) So, what I did was mengorek stor dengan zek.. It was fun actually.. haha.. discovering wierd stuff like half boiled egg steamer,disney character keychains, cordless phone and even a personal lubricant... Ni baru la namanyecar boot sale sebenar. haha. Cannot wait.

And another thing, I think I also need to sort out my internet routine. When I open my browser, it usually goes like this :

gmail> greader> malaysiakini> mtoday> utusan> facebook> gmail> greader> webct> unimail

I don't usually make it from gmail to unimail during one session. You can see, there is gmail again after facebook, where the cycle can repeat itself, that's where I usually end up ; The eternal cycle of procrastination.

The only way to end it - Stumble

:o  Not helping.

anything goes.

Baru je lepas habis sahur. Termakan banyak sangat pulak.

But, I'll need the energy for the rest of my day anyway. Since hawe skang ni sangat lah miskin, I was thinking on how to make money this wednesday. at least something that could add 100-200 dolars for my pocket money. Berangan je lah... 

I don't think I have the junks to put on sale (but then again..) So, what I did was mengorek stor dengan zek.. It was fun actually.. haha.. discovering wierd stuff like half boiled egg steamer, disney character keychains, cordless phone and even a personal lubricant... Ni baru la namanye car boot sale sebenar. haha. Cannot wait.

And another thing, I think I also need to sort out my internet routine. When I open my browser, it usually goes like this :

gmail> greader> malaysiakini> mtoday> utusan> facebook> gmail> greader> webct> unimail

I don't usually make it from gmail to unimail during one session. You can see, there is gmail again after facebook, where the cycle can repeat itself. There is where I usually endup ; The eternal cycle of procrastination.

The only way to end it, is by Stumbling :o  Not helping.

at last.. a blog blog

tadaa. tukar lagi. hehe.

anyway,

The topic for today is Human Sexual Selection

Ok bosan or, maybe ada orang dah dgr hawe citer pasal benda ni, but no harm repeating kan.

After an animal behaviour class, and after some talks with friends, I've been thinking of a few questions.

Why are ugly people more loyal? Why do some women stay single? Why do some keep changing their partners? and Why certain people commit and invest so much in their 1st relationship? 

So using economics and biology, I conclude my own answers with not much research....

If it's all in the brain, does the soul really exist?

I need help in answering many questions regarding origin of life, evolution and God. I have had too many Darwinism and Richard Dawkins idea stuck in my head. Add Hume and Mills together with it. And you get a really bad combination when you have a religion. I have faith in God but I just need a clearer explanation. Anyone?

...

Forget all the crap i talked about before. Those were products of exam pressure. Lets not go down there again. Not for another 4 months please. hehe.


So, change of topic. These pictures were taken by my dad and my brother amir. They are memories of the birds that once lived on the bamboo shoots right in front of my main door.
I didn't get to know what species it was cause they were to small, and I have never actually got to see its mother in close up. But their wings were like those of a hummingbirds where it flapped super fast.


my whole family will check on these babies everyday.The sad thing is that now the nest is empty. One went missing... and the other two died... :(

One died because of the rain i guess. The other one died mysteriously....

It's a vicious world out here... byebye birdies..

My Heart

This is not about my heart is with Anas or whatsoever. This is because of my heart. My real pumping blood heart. I think it is pumping faster than usual.

I just took 200mg of pure caffeine.
Maybe that's why. No. That is why. Pure caffeine is much easier than making coffee or buying V's. You just gulp it.

Hmm.Be concerned and say padan muka at the same time! I'll accept it with open arms..
Hmm....

OK.

Kuih sera sera

Assalamualaikum dan Selamat Sejahtera.

I'm currently aware thatI have only 2 readers right now. Thank you! Thank you! Yes you! Sheera and Zek! Even Anas doesn't about this!!

I hope that one day... maybe, I'll look back at this post and cry golden tears,,,
saying "I started out with only 2 readers, tsk tsk tsk just two..tsk tsk..twoooo okayyy....."

and I'll continue

"Dulu saya dibawah... Alhamdulillah skang saya di atas...., hidup ini ibarat roda. Kadang-kadang kita di atas, dan kadang-kadang kita dibawah.. bila kita di atas kita hendaklah jangan melupai orang-orang dibawah ya tuan tuan dan puan puan... blablablabla"

hahahahhahahaha.....!!!

and people will ask me, how can I be like you, Hawa?

If in the future, im still like now, i'll proly say 'you'll just have to find it out yourself. Coz I definetely won't tell. Muahahahaha..'

MY ASSumption.....! (lame)

more blog post while i soul search

OK. I just finished my 2nd paper. FUHHHH.

To answer people's question regarding how long will this blog survive, below is my comment :

There are only 2 fates for this blog.

"it dies soon, or it dies with me. " hahaaa! senyappp...

As for now, this blog will be a boring blog's blog....

~~~~I am currently feeding your google reader addiction... haaaaaa...(heavenly sounds)

Multiple post!!

Once upon a time there was a little spider who lived underneath a rock near Kingsford. The stone was smelly because it was not actually a rock. The spider lived happily, until one day, he felt like walking and jumping around into people's houses. He saw a house which wrote "40/39" on the door. He felt excited for no reason, so he went inside.

And then.....

(The story changes to another perspective)

I was sitting on my table eating breakfast, I saw a spider. A small little spider that looked really familiar. Just like the spiders I used to play with back home.
I caught the spider in my hand... searching for its invisible web.... and took out all his web in his butt and played with it like a yoyo like I used to, until there wasn't any.

The spider died.

The end.

Best time to open a new blog!!

Do you know when's the best time to have a new blog? When you have an exam tomorrow morning! yeaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah. Ucking exams tomorow at 9.

One exam tomorrow and 2 tooting papers on wednesday and friday.

This is an experimental blog. I have yet to figure out what this blog will be on. And since I always fail in maintaining blogs. I say, don't put your hopes too high on this one.

Being the creative, self absorbed person that I am, my blog is www.hawame.blogspot.com

Wanna know why!? Because its me jawwww HAWA meee,,,.. yoo yooowwwww......