I'm so freaking cun. I love myself.

Previously, I checked myself with the symptoms of ADD. Apparently, I only have them seasonally so I am not qualified as one, meaning I can't take the medications that could also be used as diet pills. Ops. Haha. Kidding2*..

Aaaanyways, just now I stumbled upon a rather interesting type of disorder. I am sure everyone has had a classmate/housemate/colleague who is self centered, arrogant, ego, vain, gila kuasa, loves attention or so mean and weird where you would go like "What the fak!? She/He's so fucking mean. Who the fak would actually do that?" If you haven't I am very sure you will..... one day....

I have someone in mind!! But I'm not telling who. Haha. But he/she definitely doesn't read blogs, lagi lagi mine. I am so very sure. So, it won't be you.

Those people are actually sick. Because they have a mental disorder called


Narcissistic Personality Disorder**

How sad.

They can even get free parkings for behaving like a**hole... But I guess they are too self centered to get one. These might be the people who go on a suing spree when someone makes a stupid mistake. Hurmm?

But then again, lets see how someone could develop this disorder.

• Overindulgence and overvaluation by parents<-- can't blame him lah kan
  
• Valued by parents as a means to regulate their own self-esteem
• Excessive admiration that is never balanced with realistic feedback
• Severe emotional abuse in childhood<--- ok kesian..
  
• Being praised for perceived exceptional looks or talents by adults <-- i know, being too cute like me has a downfall..
• Learning manipulative behaviors from parents

So, my last words are, if you hate someone, think again, the person might have a mental disorder where he couldn't even control his actions.. or she.. If something wrong happens, its you who'll lose in court, cause he has the "OKU" card.



* I had to put kidding.
**This is just a fun post. Don't take it too seriously.

makcik jahit

Yes yes... I have a new sewing machine!





These look easy.. Macam kacang peas... haha. Hup hup hup hawa boleh!

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You wanna know how musically challenged I am right now, look up my last.fm list. It's been 5 frikin days I haven't listened to anything, and the last thing that I listened was ilectures. How lame!! I even got other nerdies' lecture podcast for recomendations. ok tipu.

Come heree my last two paypahhhhhss.... I can't wait to show my love by vomitting my guts all over yahhh....

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Today is the most unproductive day in the whole wide world. But amazingly I finished answering the whole set of past year papers from 2004-2007 for my next paper on Monday. WOW!

Well, actually the questions are the same for every year since 2004.

Because of that, I have lost my momentum. PPfffft....

Knowing exactly whats coming out for the exam is too good to be true.

By right, I should be memorising it with all my heart right now. But Im not.

But I feel bad for not.

Because sometimes karma might be right.

Good grades are only for those who study hard.

Not for the ones who only study past year papers

I am a kiasu wearing contacts.

I am a geek with extra ehem.. nothing.....

I am still in the lab, and its freakin windy.

I feel sleepy and I am buncit.

I have 2 Mother F's with me. But I am not drinking it.

I am eating only the white side of this dinasour gummy.

Study topic : kehidupan di tanah gersang

(Life in Arid Zones)

Kenapa harus belajar tentang kehidupan di tanah gersang? Apakah kepentingan belajar tentang kehidupan di tanah gersang sedangkan tak ada tanah gersang pun di tanah air sendiri. Entahlah. Saya pun kurang tahu. Subjek ni hanya menghanguskan kulit saya dan menjadikannnya seperti padang jarak padang tekukur seperti tanah yang gersang juga. Bergunakah inti pati subjek ini kepada saya di masa hadapan kelak? Saya juga tidak begitu pasti. Siapalah saya untuk menganggarkan masa hadapan, kerana saya bukan ahli silap mata, dan bukan juga ahli sains aktuari.

Yang saya belajar tentang subjek ini ialah burung-burung, kanggaroo-kanggaroo dan echidna yang sangat comel. baby echidna yang comel


Tiba-tiba teringat quote Dr Mahathir dari lecturer saya yang pernah pergi biodiversity conference di Malaysia.

"When the last tiger dies, the sun will still shine tomorrow."

Erk? Saya rasa, sebagai manusia di dunia, kita tidak seharusnya selfish atau terlalu human centred... haiwan-haiwan juga harus di jaga bukan hanya untuk memerap dan mengekalkan kecomelan mereka untuk anak cucu, tetapi sebagai insuran di masa akan datang. Poyo tapi betul.

mimpi ep2

Ok.. harini mimpi lagi. tapi kali ni kena HEMPAP and it felt shitly like this... seriously.

Something was sitting on my chest and choking me, and it felt REAL, sounded REAL, and looked REAL. I would certainly confirm that I saw a real ghost if i did not know earlier what it actually was.
So, its called Sleeping Paralysis or the old hag or hempap or whatever else.

What happens is when you are asleep, in deep REM sleep, your brain releases a chemical which paralysises your body (other wise when we dream we would be waving our arms and legs about). In some people, they wake up and this chemical is still in their blood stream. It also is often accompanied by hallucinations or remenants of a dream.
One of the most terrifying aspects is this, is the "hag", which is a common hallucination for sufferers. When this chemical is present, our breathing feels restricted. This causes a common hallucination that there is someone sitting on our chest, whilst we are unable to move.


In my entire life.. i think It happened to me around 10x...

The fun thing about it, is to read what other cultures call it.. this is just from wiki..

• In Greece and Cyprus, it is believed that sleep paralysis occurs when a ghost-like creature or Demon named Mora, Vrahnas or Varypnas (Greek: Μόρα, Βραχνάς, Βαρυπνάς) tries to steal the victim's speech or sits on the victim's chest causing asphyxiation.

• In Zimbabwean Shona culture the word Madzikirira is used to refer something really pressing one down. This mostly refers to the spiritual world in which some spirit--especially an evil one--tries to use its victim for some evil purpose. The people believe that witches can only be people of close relations to be effective, and hence a witches often try to use one's spirit to bewitch one's relatives.

• In Ethiopian culture the word Dukak is used. Dukak is believed to be some form of evil spirit that possesses people during their sleep. This experience is also believed to be related to use of Khat. Most Khat users experience sleep paralysis when quitting after a long time of use.

• In Ireland it is also known as "the hag." The expression originates from reports of an old woman that was believed to be seen near the sufferer during paralysis.

• Several studies have shown that African-Americans may be predisposed to isolated sleep paralysis also known as "the witch is riding you," or "the haint is riding you."^[18] In addition, other studies have shown that African-Americans who have frequent episodes of isolated sleep paralysis, i.e., reporting having one or more sleep paralysis episodes per month coined as "sleep paralysis disorder," were predisposed to having panic attacks.^[19] This finding has been replicated by other independent researchers^[20][21]

• In Pakistani culture, it is an encounter with evil jinns and demons. It is also assumed that it is due to the black magic performed by enemies and jealous persons. Curses could also result in ghoul haunting a person. Some homes and locations are also haunted by these satanic beings.

• In Korean Culture, sleep paralysis is known as 가위눌림 ("ga-ui nool-lim"), which means "pressed by a nightmare."

twitter was kinda cool until..

........... I saw this video by LisaNova.