bile nak puasa ni.

Hari ni nak pegi libary as early as possible. Smbung balik kehidupan yang kurang bermakna macam first sem third year. tp macam susah sket, sbb dah lama x buat.

Ok tadi hawa mimpi minum air susu eucalyptus. Minum susu tu konon2 sbab nak nak cari substitute untuk susu biasa. tp soy tkde. so beli satu paket besar susu eucalyptus. rasa dia, mcm susu sket, kladak2 sket n fizzy2.. macam rasa air liur hawe skang.

pastu mimpi ade satu jalan ni kat tengah2 highway, ada bnyaak sangat org meniaga barang2 direct seling. pastu espect tak kena langgar bile kete lalu. tahpape tah, confiden je kete tak langgar. nyampah betul.


then part ketiga, mimpi jumpe sorang mamat random yg hensem jugak. pegi class sama2. lalala.

bfore tu mimpi kena kerja. cari batu bawah meja. pastu ada 50 meja kena check. tu mcm wadefak. habis2 keje. nmpak ade janitor moden, bawak laptop kat dalam toilet, smbil main fesbuk.

pastu mimpi discover kedai 1st yang jual honey stars kat sydneyyyy... pastu smorang buat party honey stars... wuuuu bess...

ooooo baru teringat, haa sbb mimpi honey stars tu laa nak kena beli susu. tp susu biasa mahal.
susu eucalyptus tu dah la organic murah lak tu. something camtu la.


rasa mcm scale kebesan diri dah masuk negative. hawe boringer.

ok. azam nk kurus

ok blog post ade balik sbb exam is near. kindoff. thesis due date. drama build up. and needs to be released somewhere.

i feel so pathetic with my phobia. Phobia dengan orang2 yg involved in customer services. mcm operator, customer service kat supermarket or benda2 yang hampir mcm tu. I have no idea why hawa actually takut. Serious rasa pathetic.

If you are one of my close friends, you can notice if not before, that I've never done these things myself and very likely I've used you.

msti macam.. shera, tolong call kan. zek tolong call kan.. or fini, tolong call kan pleeease.
Sbb smata2 nak avoid the anxiety yg tak semena2.

I have never done a refund my whole life. Just sebab takut. Keberanian tu ade. tp die muncul kadang2.

Tapi tipu la takde langsung deal ngn dorang. ade je, tp kena topic2 yg ok. salah topic. anxiety disorder.

Before ni hawa x consider bende ni as phobia. sbb kalau takat bedebar2 before nak call, biasa lah.
or stakat rehearse the lines yg nak tanya kat operator tu before tanya, tu pun bende biasa. But bile smpai to the point rasa macam nak nanges. mcm rasa bodoh nye diri sndiri..

Mcam firza yg opposite ngn hawa ckp, my confidence comes in bigger crowds. Attention seeker yang sangat buruk. Tp bila deal benda2 remeh ni terus takde balls.

Tadi cm ade drama tahpape. semata2 hawa tanak call nak baiki credit card details.
nanges semua bagai. Dia memuncak sbb anas paksa suruh call, sebab sampai bila nak mcm ni. Kalau x prektis macamana nak improve. Sbb kena paksa tu. rasa lagi nk jerit. n lagi nk nanges. haha. last2 nanges.

Nanges, pastu pening kepala, pastu migrain. pastu last2 still tak call2 jugak.
hish cacat.

Rasa macam tengok diri sndiri dalam drama jerry springer, kumpul2kan orang2 yang ada phobia with weird things, like shoe laces la... belon lah.. haa.. rasa macam setahap ngn diorang.
pastu down. sbb boleh jadi wierdo yg masuk cite2 macam tu. besides the fact hawa boleh beliakkan biji mata and tadah kat tangan la kan. ok mengarut. inside joke dgn begitu over dengan diri sndiri.

waverly beach cemetery

I want to make a cool video. Define "cool"? I don't know. I'm always lame. But that lame/cool video is on its way! haha.

Its half semester already. I dont feel I have accomplished anything besides the intro presentation.
HMMff.. tomorrow I'll be going to the field site to catch some flies.

Yes im working with flies. I squished around 3 flies this morning. They are so juicy. Nyam2.

Anddd,,,, I went to Waverly cemetery for an experiment, took data for 200 graves. I feel so efficient, since they actually gave 2 weeks to do this.....
Omg, the view was superbly awesome.

This blog from now on will be a meaningless blog, with short sentences.

I think Im too used to writing short sentences because of twitter.

My English is deteriorating, not saying that it was good to start off with anyway.

hello good morning everyone

I have been taking it too hard for myself on this 1% introductory presentation. But, alhamdulillah everything went well... FAnks to many people who helped me.

Besides the fact that I actually forgot that I have a blog, I'm too lazy to blog because:


1. There's twitter
2. I am too busy
3. I am walking kiasu

While I'm writing this, I can smell some cinnamony sweet cookiesh smell... Its so good.

apples to pairs

owhh.. I hate working under constant pressure.
Luckily, I have lovely friends to play and talk crap with.
I'll get a new free handphone today. Thanks to uni for the 2012 expiry date student card.

emosi awal tahun

So I'm back in Sydney after 13 days in Malaysia.
I thought it would be okay, as in to forget the past and start new. But I think the problems just continued exactly like the way I left it. I am not sure what I am looking forward for this year. Honors? Not at all. I'm just looking forward for this year to end. So I can go back home as early as possible, even if it is as early as going back for good in November. I don't mind at all.

I want next year to be now. I want to go on a Eurotrip. I want to work in zoos, or teach primary kids for a month or two. And maybe later, study somewhere far away from Australia, the other side of the world maybe. For me, four years here is a bit too much. 3 and a half is okay. Not 4 no.

Emosi okay.

treasure hunting my house

Oh my, blog ni really needs some work to be done.

Anyways, I have failed my resolution not to go back home this summer. Which is actually a blessing. Sebab kalau tak, Hawa sure jadi psyco kat Sydney with all the drama yang sangat tah pape. Home is sweet and has changed a lot!

I think my house is somewhat just like my room in the sense that you can find lots of wierd stuff in it (sepah tak samala of course).

Hanif is suddenly into Rubik's cube. So there's a Rubik section. Dekat berbelas Rubik cubes bentuk lain-lain. My mom likes green tea, and she has different sorts of tea and one even has golden dust in it. Green tea with gold dust? Who would actually thought of that kan??.

Home PC punye keyboard tengok2 ada musical keyboard skali cantum. Then there's a cupping set. Hawa macam eeeeeeee bekam... boleh ke buat sendiri. ew ew. Actually banyak je lagi yang macam... hahh? ape niii.... perlu ke..?
But then again, bila pikir balik.. takde la pelik for me. Hahaha..

dalam darah la katakan....