Tuesday, August 25, 2009
delete
kenapa kena ade manusia cam ni.
tak bes nyaaaa.........
dah mati akal dah nak cakap macamana.
nak lari tak boleh sbb ade kaitan dengan kerja.
jawap kena tak jawap pun kena jugak.
cite panjang meleret2 takde ending.
nak tido lah. pstu boleh mimpi2.. lagi bes.
tak bes nyaaaa.........
dah mati akal dah nak cakap macamana.
nak lari tak boleh sbb ade kaitan dengan kerja.
jawap kena tak jawap pun kena jugak.
cite panjang meleret2 takde ending.
nak tido lah. pstu boleh mimpi2.. lagi bes.
Monday, August 24, 2009
down down up down up
I'm finally feeling that sick rush inside my heart. It wasn't there for a few weeks and my work was seriously going downhill.
Its good in a way that I'm actually feeling more productive, but it feels so ughh.. not fun. I wish that I actually like doing what I'm doing right now. It would make my life much easier. Takde conflict dalaman yang shitty cam skang.
I have a meeting in 10. Rasa nak ponteng. Sbb I won't be giving anyone good feedback anyway. Pfffft.
Kejap2 hawa excited. kejap2 down. Nak kata pms, tak pon. Cepat la habis. Nak balik msia early December.
Leg shaking constantly.
HUAH!
Its good in a way that I'm actually feeling more productive, but it feels so ughh.. not fun. I wish that I actually like doing what I'm doing right now. It would make my life much easier. Takde conflict dalaman yang shitty cam skang.
I have a meeting in 10. Rasa nak ponteng. Sbb I won't be giving anyone good feedback anyway. Pfffft.
Kejap2 hawa excited. kejap2 down. Nak kata pms, tak pon. Cepat la habis. Nak balik msia early December.
Leg shaking constantly.
HUAH!
bile nak puasa ni.
Hari ni nak pegi libary as early as possible. Smbung balik kehidupan yang kurang bermakna macam first sem third year. tp macam susah sket, sbb dah lama x buat.
Ok tadi hawa mimpi minum air susu eucalyptus. Minum susu tu konon2 sbab nak nak cari substitute untuk susu biasa. tp soy tkde. so beli satu paket besar susu eucalyptus. rasa dia, mcm susu sket, kladak2 sket n fizzy2.. macam rasa air liur hawe skang.
pastu mimpi ade satu jalan ni kat tengah2 highway, ada bnyaak sangat org meniaga barang2 direct seling. pastu espect tak kena langgar bile kete lalu. tahpape tah, confiden je kete tak langgar. nyampah betul.
then part ketiga, mimpi jumpe sorang mamat random yg hensem jugak. pegi class sama2. lalala.
bfore tu mimpi kena kerja. cari batu bawah meja. pastu ada 50 meja kena check. tu mcm wadefak. habis2 keje. nmpak ade janitor moden, bawak laptop kat dalam toilet, smbil main fesbuk.
pastu mimpi discover kedai 1st yang jual honey stars kat sydneyyyy... pastu smorang buat party honey stars... wuuuu bess...
ooooo baru teringat, haa sbb mimpi honey stars tu laa nak kena beli susu. tp susu biasa mahal.
susu eucalyptus tu dah la organic murah lak tu. something camtu la.
rasa mcm scale kebesan diri dah masuk negative. hawe boringer.
Ok tadi hawa mimpi minum air susu eucalyptus. Minum susu tu konon2 sbab nak nak cari substitute untuk susu biasa. tp soy tkde. so beli satu paket besar susu eucalyptus. rasa dia, mcm susu sket, kladak2 sket n fizzy2.. macam rasa air liur hawe skang.
pastu mimpi ade satu jalan ni kat tengah2 highway, ada bnyaak sangat org meniaga barang2 direct seling. pastu espect tak kena langgar bile kete lalu. tahpape tah, confiden je kete tak langgar. nyampah betul.
then part ketiga, mimpi jumpe sorang mamat random yg hensem jugak. pegi class sama2. lalala.
bfore tu mimpi kena kerja. cari batu bawah meja. pastu ada 50 meja kena check. tu mcm wadefak. habis2 keje. nmpak ade janitor moden, bawak laptop kat dalam toilet, smbil main fesbuk.
pastu mimpi discover kedai 1st yang jual honey stars kat sydneyyyy... pastu smorang buat party honey stars... wuuuu bess...
ooooo baru teringat, haa sbb mimpi honey stars tu laa nak kena beli susu. tp susu biasa mahal.
susu eucalyptus tu dah la organic murah lak tu. something camtu la.
rasa mcm scale kebesan diri dah masuk negative. hawe boringer.
Sunday, August 23, 2009
ok. azam nk kurus
ok blog post ade balik sbb exam is near. kindoff. thesis due date. drama build up. and needs to be released somewhere.
i feel so pathetic with my phobia. Phobia dengan orang2 yg involved in customer services. mcm operator, customer service kat supermarket or benda2 yang hampir mcm tu. I have no idea why hawa actually takut. Serious rasa pathetic.
If you are one of my close friends, you can notice if not before, that I've never done these things myself and very likely I've used you.
msti macam.. shera, tolong call kan. zek tolong call kan.. or fini, tolong call kan pleeease.
Sbb smata2 nak avoid the anxiety yg tak semena2.
I have never done a refund my whole life. Just sebab takut. Keberanian tu ade. tp die muncul kadang2.
Tapi tipu la takde langsung deal ngn dorang. ade je, tp kena topic2 yg ok. salah topic. anxiety disorder.
Before ni hawa x consider bende ni as phobia. sbb kalau takat bedebar2 before nak call, biasa lah.
or stakat rehearse the lines yg nak tanya kat operator tu before tanya, tu pun bende biasa. But bile smpai to the point rasa macam nak nanges. mcm rasa bodoh nye diri sndiri..
Mcam firza yg opposite ngn hawa ckp, my confidence comes in bigger crowds. Attention seeker yang sangat buruk. Tp bila deal benda2 remeh ni terus takde balls.
Tadi cm ade drama tahpape. semata2 hawa tanak call nak baiki credit card details.
nanges semua bagai. Dia memuncak sbb anas paksa suruh call, sebab sampai bila nak mcm ni. Kalau x prektis macamana nak improve. Sbb kena paksa tu. rasa lagi nk jerit. n lagi nk nanges. haha. last2 nanges.
Nanges, pastu pening kepala, pastu migrain. pastu last2 still tak call2 jugak.
hish cacat.
Rasa macam tengok diri sndiri dalam drama jerry springer, kumpul2kan orang2 yang ada phobia with weird things, like shoe laces la... belon lah.. haa.. rasa macam setahap ngn diorang.
pastu down. sbb boleh jadi wierdo yg masuk cite2 macam tu. besides the fact hawa boleh beliakkan biji mata and tadah kat tangan la kan. ok mengarut. inside joke dgn begitu over dengan diri sndiri.
i feel so pathetic with my phobia. Phobia dengan orang2 yg involved in customer services. mcm operator, customer service kat supermarket or benda2 yang hampir mcm tu. I have no idea why hawa actually takut. Serious rasa pathetic.
If you are one of my close friends, you can notice if not before, that I've never done these things myself and very likely I've used you.
msti macam.. shera, tolong call kan. zek tolong call kan.. or fini, tolong call kan pleeease.
Sbb smata2 nak avoid the anxiety yg tak semena2.
I have never done a refund my whole life. Just sebab takut. Keberanian tu ade. tp die muncul kadang2.
Tapi tipu la takde langsung deal ngn dorang. ade je, tp kena topic2 yg ok. salah topic. anxiety disorder.
Before ni hawa x consider bende ni as phobia. sbb kalau takat bedebar2 before nak call, biasa lah.
or stakat rehearse the lines yg nak tanya kat operator tu before tanya, tu pun bende biasa. But bile smpai to the point rasa macam nak nanges. mcm rasa bodoh nye diri sndiri..
Mcam firza yg opposite ngn hawa ckp, my confidence comes in bigger crowds. Attention seeker yang sangat buruk. Tp bila deal benda2 remeh ni terus takde balls.
Tadi cm ade drama tahpape. semata2 hawa tanak call nak baiki credit card details.
nanges semua bagai. Dia memuncak sbb anas paksa suruh call, sebab sampai bila nak mcm ni. Kalau x prektis macamana nak improve. Sbb kena paksa tu. rasa lagi nk jerit. n lagi nk nanges. haha. last2 nanges.
Nanges, pastu pening kepala, pastu migrain. pastu last2 still tak call2 jugak.
hish cacat.
Rasa macam tengok diri sndiri dalam drama jerry springer, kumpul2kan orang2 yang ada phobia with weird things, like shoe laces la... belon lah.. haa.. rasa macam setahap ngn diorang.
pastu down. sbb boleh jadi wierdo yg masuk cite2 macam tu. besides the fact hawa boleh beliakkan biji mata and tadah kat tangan la kan. ok mengarut. inside joke dgn begitu over dengan diri sndiri.
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